By Emelie Meija
That is one thing I did not expect to learn from studying abroad was the amount of navigation I would be subjected to. It resembles the feeling of when a child first discovers new things, like why the sky is blue and why humans can not breathe underwater. As a child, curiosity sprouted a dream of exploring the world. That dream stayed a figment of my imagination until I arrived at college. As a first generation student, I was wary of the opportunity to study abroad. It seemed as though I would have to complete never ending tasks by myself to achieve my dreams. To be transparent, there were moments where I felt discouraged. I considered if it was even worth leaving my home and the people I love to pursue an unknown. Eventually, I took the chance to explore the world, as well as new parts of myself.
Choosing Lisbon as the setting to live out my dream was not too difficult. The need to experience something unique was very important to me. Who would pass up the opportunity to go to one of the sunniest countries in Europe as well as to explore the culture behind Fado music, Palaces in Sintra, and so many spectacular viewpoints to watch the sunset. It seemed like a simple choice. Plus, ISEP offered accommodations to help me get acclimated from transportation costs to included excursions that allowed me to immerse myself in different communities.
I arrived in Portugal with nothing but my suitcase and a motivation for adventure. The initial fear I had eventually dissolved. One of the things you learn through study abroad is how essential it is for you to step out of your comfort zone. Suddenly, you are subject to navigating a whole new city including finding your new favorite grocery store with a specific guacamole that you will always reach for. Home did not seem to be too far away, as I managed to stay connected with family and friends back home. As I began to explore the city more, I had the privilege in engaging in conversations with people from all around the world. My days were soon filled with devouring an insane amount of Pastel de Nata, sunbathing after a surfing session, planning trips in neighboring towns to intimately understand the culture of Portugal, and ultimately, sharing laughs and amazing memories with the new connections I had made.
I noticed a certain sequence while reminiscing. There is fear in the beginning, bliss in the present, and sadness in the ending. Adapting back to my home was a struggle, perfectly common when coming back from studying abroad. The best method of describing the longing I felt was from a word I learned while abroad: ”saudade.” I am grateful for pushing past my fears and learning to adapt to a new version of me because in the end, a piece of me will always belong in a place I was once unfamiliar with.
There are many lessons that you learn abroad, while exploring a new culture and environment. One piece of guidance I hope to offer my fellow first generation students is that fear of the unknown will only hold you back. Given the opportunity to study abroad I would do it all over again without changing a thing. Yes, it may be difficult at many different points, but in the end it is all worth it. Adapting to unfamiliar situations will seem insignificant once you find your place.